Dear Adel

Only if I could shout it to you.

Dear Adel, my beloved younger cousin

You used to imitate everything about me, right? Fashion style, high school, dreams, etc.

But, here's one thing I want you to never imitate

Don't get married!

Yes, it fulfills our half religion, true! yet it wasn't easy

Marriage life is a disaster

The first 5 years is filled with love like love birds or puppy love

But after, it was between two heads

If only I could turn back the time, I won't say I won't get married.

I would spend more time for myself, studying, travelling, and anything.

I missed my life before marriage.

I never forget the prayer I said a few years ago just to have this life

But, just having a feeling of missing my life before marriage feels a sin, moreover if he also knows

I may be stupid or he's smart so he can read my mind

I hate it

Can I just have a privacy and hide my feeling?

I will not do something dangerous

I just need a Me Time with myself and my mind

The most beautiful thing about marriage is being a mother

I realized since I was young

Do you remember how we used to play a role being a mother with a baby doll?

It means we already prepared for it unconsciously

I never regret being a mother

It was the most beautiful and the greatest thing happen to my life

Two children are miracles

I love them more than I love myself

I love them that I would die for them

So, enjoy your life before getting married

Do whatever you want to do with YOURSELF

Don't postpone it

Don't wait other people to make your dream true

You have yourself!

I pray you can better than me by not imimating me.

I'm so proud of you.